ALMOST A YEAR

So, it's been almost a year since I posted.

News? I met the blue-eyed guy.. We talked a lot then, but he deleted me of facebook.. And this year we met at some parties, and almost hook up once. But nothing important, I don't ussually talk to him.

About 3m, we had something in december, it was nice. But he slowly stopped talking to me, and by that time I had to go to camp. So we didn't see each other during the summer (2 months)

Well, I still liked him trough the beginning of the school year, so in may I had to tell him everything I felt. He said he didn't feel the same way, that I was now just a good friend.

Yepi, first heart-break (:

Now I don't know what he wants, everything is starting to be just like it used to be. And maybe I'm starting to forget.

MJB

i'm giving up, i'm giving up slowly

Why I always choose the one who is taken? 2 and counting

I decided I will be a wedding breaker, and what the fuck!?

I don't wanna wait till he breaks up.. I know we have chemistry, I know, that besides he has been on a relationship for 2 years, he likes me .. or something like that. No, actually I don't know, and I'm giving up, I'm giving up slowly.

Yes, almost giving up.
A month ago, when you broke up, I saw a glimmer of hope, but now.. that you came back to her, I don't know what to think.. You're the first one who made my heart feel.. pain? Everytime you say something about her, my heart breaks a little..

FFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUU ... I hate this situation !

broken strings

aaah tengo pegada esa canción
I try to hold on but it hurts too much, i try to forgive but is not enough

new new new formspring: www.formspring.me/mariajesusb

I hate family troubles.. right know i can feel the vibe of calm, but that calm before the storm.

This whole week i've been feeling nervious (not about the family thing), like with butterflies in my stomach... I talked with a friend about this, and he has been feeling the same. He said: it's the planets alineation.

Last night I watched The young Victoria.. I loved the dresses, and the art/image direction, but.. What was the point of the movie? Where was the climax? I don't know, I didn't see it D:

On wednesday I asked him to go out, to have lunch. I wanted to pay, actually I was giving the money to the cashier and then he showed up with his credit card, and didn't let me pay. I hate-loved him in that moment (:
But I'm sick and tired of looking for him. Everytime I see him alone in a study room, I go there. Everytime I see him in the hallways, I go over him and say Hi. After that, we always can keep an amazing conversation and laughing, but I don't wanna have always the initiative, you know?
I want him to look for me... to seek and persue me.
That's why I just said Hi today and walked away... Is that right?

And you know what else? I "fall in love" with another boy. I haven't ever talked to him, but everytime we meet, we look to each other ... His eyes are calypso, his nose..OMG his nose! He's 3 years older than me.. but, I don't care. I need to know him. Yesterday we meet in the library, and we just looked to each other.
I have like 5 platonic love. I need to control myself! but in this new world is almost imposible

right now i'm feeling really pathetic talking about this D:

aaah something more! yesterday (yeah, so many things happened yesterday) I had to do a work with my 4 partners, but I couldn't find one of them, so I called him, and he said he was sleeping in his apartment.. and I said 'but, you can come about 3pm?' and he said 'maybe' so I pissed out (but just joking) and I threw my phone to the table, and the screen turned all black. So that's my excuse to have a new phone, like a blackberry or something like that.. maybe a touch phone?

Hugs, have a great weekend (: tomorrow I have college, so...right to my bed
PLAYING: Poison - The All-American rejects (BSO Alice in wonderland)

hey, soul sister

Last desings, sorry for the lack of posting (: .. Also i have a new pair of black leggings from ZARA..

This was an amazing weekend.. Party + rest + mall + starbucks + shopping + friends + concert = Almost perfect weekend
Yesterday i went to Demi Lovato's concert.. i was like.. i don't know to say it in english. The concert was short, and she didn't sing my favourite song of her (stronger).
this week: college, friends, 3M (lunch, hopefully) & camp





ry for the quality, i don't know what i was thinking.. that effect makes the 'sign' so dirty..

PLAYING: Hey, soul sister - Train

sky, sky, sky

i wish i had a good camera, but when i saw a beautiful sunset or sunrise the only helpful thing i'm carring is my celphone, so sorry for the quality

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