i'm giving up, i'm giving up slowly

Why I always choose the one who is taken? 2 and counting

I decided I will be a wedding breaker, and what the fuck!?

I don't wanna wait till he breaks up.. I know we have chemistry, I know, that besides he has been on a relationship for 2 years, he likes me .. or something like that. No, actually I don't know, and I'm giving up, I'm giving up slowly.

Yes, almost giving up.
A month ago, when you broke up, I saw a glimmer of hope, but now.. that you came back to her, I don't know what to think.. You're the first one who made my heart feel.. pain? Everytime you say something about her, my heart breaks a little..

FFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUU ... I hate this situation !

broken strings

aaah tengo pegada esa canción
I try to hold on but it hurts too much, i try to forgive but is not enough

new new new formspring: www.formspring.me/mariajesusb

I hate family troubles.. right know i can feel the vibe of calm, but that calm before the storm.

This whole week i've been feeling nervious (not about the family thing), like with butterflies in my stomach... I talked with a friend about this, and he has been feeling the same. He said: it's the planets alineation.

Last night I watched The young Victoria.. I loved the dresses, and the art/image direction, but.. What was the point of the movie? Where was the climax? I don't know, I didn't see it D:

On wednesday I asked him to go out, to have lunch. I wanted to pay, actually I was giving the money to the cashier and then he showed up with his credit card, and didn't let me pay. I hate-loved him in that moment (:
But I'm sick and tired of looking for him. Everytime I see him alone in a study room, I go there. Everytime I see him in the hallways, I go over him and say Hi. After that, we always can keep an amazing conversation and laughing, but I don't wanna have always the initiative, you know?
I want him to look for me... to seek and persue me.
That's why I just said Hi today and walked away... Is that right?

And you know what else? I "fall in love" with another boy. I haven't ever talked to him, but everytime we meet, we look to each other ... His eyes are calypso, his nose..OMG his nose! He's 3 years older than me.. but, I don't care. I need to know him. Yesterday we meet in the library, and we just looked to each other.
I have like 5 platonic love. I need to control myself! but in this new world is almost imposible

right now i'm feeling really pathetic talking about this D:

aaah something more! yesterday (yeah, so many things happened yesterday) I had to do a work with my 4 partners, but I couldn't find one of them, so I called him, and he said he was sleeping in his apartment.. and I said 'but, you can come about 3pm?' and he said 'maybe' so I pissed out (but just joking) and I threw my phone to the table, and the screen turned all black. So that's my excuse to have a new phone, like a blackberry or something like that.. maybe a touch phone?

Hugs, have a great weekend (: tomorrow I have college, so...right to my bed
PLAYING: Poison - The All-American rejects (BSO Alice in wonderland)

hey, soul sister

Last desings, sorry for the lack of posting (: .. Also i have a new pair of black leggings from ZARA..

This was an amazing weekend.. Party + rest + mall + starbucks + shopping + friends + concert = Almost perfect weekend
Yesterday i went to Demi Lovato's concert.. i was like.. i don't know to say it in english. The concert was short, and she didn't sing my favourite song of her (stronger).
this week: college, friends, 3M (lunch, hopefully) & camp





ry for the quality, i don't know what i was thinking.. that effect makes the 'sign' so dirty..

PLAYING: Hey, soul sister - Train

sky, sky, sky

i wish i had a good camera, but when i saw a beautiful sunset or sunrise the only helpful thing i'm carring is my celphone, so sorry for the quality

new TUMBLR
http://missfantasia.blogspot.com

some good purchases and creations

about US$6


from left to right: the peackoc, the next ring and the stone ring were US$2 (each one); the 'mazon' eye ring US$0.6 ..that would be 60 cents right? (sorry, not from usa); the last one is from brazil and i don't remember how much it was.. oh, and it's made of wood


used shoes, US$12


they look kind of brown in the pic, but they're actually grey/lead .. they were 90dollars/ worth it, it was my birth day



i made it by myself..it was about 2 dollars.. i think


maria jesus

loving the college




RIGHT BIRDS CAN FLY SO HIGH AND THEY CAN SHIT ON YOUR HEAD
YEAH THEY CAN ALMOST FLY INTO YOUR EYE AND MAKE YOU FEEL WELL SCARED
BUT WHEN YOU LOOK AT THEM, AND YOU SEE THAT THEY'RE BEAUTIFUL
THAT'S HOW I FEEL ABOUT YOU

SHE SAID.. WHAT?
HE SAID.. YOU

SHE SAID.. WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?
HE SAID.. YOU

RIGHT BIRDS CAN FLY SO HIGH AND THEY CAN SHIT ON YOUR HEAD
YEAH THEY CAN ALMOST FLY INTO YOUR EYE AND MAKE YOU FEEL WELL SCARED
BUT WHEN YOU LOOK AT THEM, AND YOU SEE THAT THEY'RE BEAUTIFUL
THAT'S HOW I FEEL ABOUT YOU

RIGHT THAT'S HOW I FEEL ABOUT YOU

SHE SAID.. THANKS, I LIKE YOU TOO
HE SAID.. COOL


not feeling, actually

not averageeee

women

second from left to right , bottom row

at the casinooo..im in the left

leftttt


college is amazing!

misguided ghosts

I am going away for a while
But I'll be back, don't try and follow me
'Cause I'll return as soon as possible
See I'm trying to find my place
But it might not be here where I feel safe
We all learn to make mistakes

And run
From them, from them
With no direction
We'll run from them, from them
With no conviction

'Cause I'm just one of those ghosts
Traveling endlessly
Don't need no roads
In fact they follow me

And we just go in circles

Well Now I'm told that this is life
And pain is just a simple compromise
So we can get what we want out of it
Would someone care to classify,
Of broken hearts and twisted minds
So I can find someone to rely on

And run
To them, to them
Full speed ahead
Oh you are not, Useless
We are just

Misguided ghosts
Traveling endlessly
The ones we trusted the most
Pushed us far away
And there's no one road
We should not be the same
But I'm just a ghost
And still they echo me

They echo me in circles

ese es EL SECRETO

The Creator gathered all of Creation and said,

“I want to hide something from the humans until they are ready for it. It is the realization that they create their own reality”. 

The eagle said, “Give it to me, I will take it to the moon.”

 The Creator said, “No. One day they will go there and find it.”

 The salmon said, “I will bury it on the bottom of the ocean.” "No. They will go there too.” 
The buffalo said, “I will bury it on the Great Plains.”

 The Creator said, “They will cut into the skin of the Earth and find it even there.”

 Grandmother Mole, who lives in the breast of Mother Earth, and who has no physical eyes but sees with spiritual eyes 

said, “Put it inside of them.” 

And the Creator said, “It is done.”

quote & video taken from bellechantelle.blogspot.com

ebba elisabeth

http://ebbaelisabeth.blogg.se

ebba elisabeth

in a few hours i will show the big one

we always used to dream about flying like that

yeah, we always used to dream that


summer was insane

The secret's in the telling - dashboard confessionalThe signal is subtle
We pass just close enough to touch
No questions, no answers
We know by now to say enough
With only simple words
With only subtle turns
The things we feel alone for one another

There is a secret that we keep
I won't sleep if you won't sleep
Because tonight may be the last chance we'll be given
We are compelled to do what we must do
We are compelled to do what we have been forbidden

So I won't sleep if you won't sleep tonight

Our act of defiance
We keep this secret in our blood
No paper or letters
We pass just close enough to touch
We love in secret names
We hide within our veins
The things that keep us bound to one another

There is a secret that we keep
I won't sleep if you won't sleep
Because tonight may be the last chance we'll be given
We are compelled to do what we must do
We are compelled to do what we have been forbidden

Until the last resilient hope
Is frozen deep inside my bones
And this broken fate has claimed me
And my memories for its own
Your name is pounding through my veins
Can't you hear how it is sung?
And I can taste you in my mouth
Before the words escape my lungs
And I'll whisper only once...

There is a secret that we keep
I won't sleep if you won't sleep
Because tonight may be the last chance we'll be given
We are compelled to do what we have to
We are compelled to do what we have been forbidden

'Cause you will be somebody's girl
And you will keep each other warm
But tonight I am feeling cold

never tought i would find a song so me




hugs, and let me know if you read this ..
and sorry for my english