broken strings

aaah tengo pegada esa canción
I try to hold on but it hurts too much, i try to forgive but is not enough

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I hate family troubles.. right know i can feel the vibe of calm, but that calm before the storm.

This whole week i've been feeling nervious (not about the family thing), like with butterflies in my stomach... I talked with a friend about this, and he has been feeling the same. He said: it's the planets alineation.

Last night I watched The young Victoria.. I loved the dresses, and the art/image direction, but.. What was the point of the movie? Where was the climax? I don't know, I didn't see it D:

On wednesday I asked him to go out, to have lunch. I wanted to pay, actually I was giving the money to the cashier and then he showed up with his credit card, and didn't let me pay. I hate-loved him in that moment (:
But I'm sick and tired of looking for him. Everytime I see him alone in a study room, I go there. Everytime I see him in the hallways, I go over him and say Hi. After that, we always can keep an amazing conversation and laughing, but I don't wanna have always the initiative, you know?
I want him to look for me... to seek and persue me.
That's why I just said Hi today and walked away... Is that right?

And you know what else? I "fall in love" with another boy. I haven't ever talked to him, but everytime we meet, we look to each other ... His eyes are calypso, his nose..OMG his nose! He's 3 years older than me.. but, I don't care. I need to know him. Yesterday we meet in the library, and we just looked to each other.
I have like 5 platonic love. I need to control myself! but in this new world is almost imposible

right now i'm feeling really pathetic talking about this D:

aaah something more! yesterday (yeah, so many things happened yesterday) I had to do a work with my 4 partners, but I couldn't find one of them, so I called him, and he said he was sleeping in his apartment.. and I said 'but, you can come about 3pm?' and he said 'maybe' so I pissed out (but just joking) and I threw my phone to the table, and the screen turned all black. So that's my excuse to have a new phone, like a blackberry or something like that.. maybe a touch phone?

Hugs, have a great weekend (: tomorrow I have college, so...right to my bed
PLAYING: Poison - The All-American rejects (BSO Alice in wonderland)